祝你生日快乐。。。

今天是他的生日。。。
我真得很想和他一起过。。。
可惜我们有缘没分。。。
连朋友也做不成了。。。
我为我做过的东西感到后悔。。。

我是喜欢他。。。
可是，
与其看见。。。
他不开心，
不如，
看见他开心？

对不起。。。
我希望你如果看到这一篇文章的话。。。
会原谅我。。。。
我不求什么。。。
只求你原谅。。。

最后，

我祝你生日快乐！！！
早日找到适合你的对象。。。。

这样很好。。。。

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我们是否常常都在埋怨。。。。
说道。。。。
为什么。。。别人的男友那么体贴？
为什么。。。谁谁谁的家庭那么幸福？
为什么。。。别人有的我不能有？
为什么这样,为什么那样。。。。
We always blame...
we blamed that...
why...other ppl's boyfriend are so caring?and mine not?
why....ppl's family are so warm and loving and mine not?
why...what other ppl have and I cant have it?
why this why that....

可是，
有多少人会知足呢？
其实，
我真得，只希望。。。能简简单单的和我喜欢的人在一起。。。
哪怕是要每天吃面包。。。
走路回家。。。
只要能和他在一起。。。
我觉得这样最好。。。。
这是我觉得最好的人生。。。
But,
How many ppl will feel Contentment?
actually,
I will....
I only hope...to be together wit the person tat I like...
even though eating bread everyday...
walk home everyday...
just wana be wit the person...
I think this is the best...
this is the best life...

p/s: 知足常乐。。。。
Contentment bring happiness

风筝。。。。Kite......

断了线的风筝，
是意味着，
它得到自由吗？
还是噩梦的开始？

风筝没断线时，
总是被控制着，
飞高 飞低,
飞左 飞右，
一举一动，
都牢牢的被控制着。。。。

风筝断线后。。。。
它得到了自由吗？
它能自由的飞翔吗？
它能到达它想去的地方吗？


不！

风筝断线后。。。。
它还得靠着风。。。
风控制了它的一举一动。。。。

现在，
风筝没有了一个固定的方向。。
反而被风任由摆布。。。
大风一吹。。。
风筝就没有方向的乱飞。。。
风一停息。。。
风筝就无奈的。。。
没有方向的往大地飘下。。。

风筝就算能飞得再高。。。
他都得不到自己的自由。。。。
因为，
它没有一对真正属于自己的翅膀。。。

没有翅膀就等于没有自由。。。。
没有翅膀就等于没有方向。。。。
没有翅膀就等于没有希望。。。。

属于我的翅膀在哪里呢？

我何时才能拥有自己的翅膀呢？
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When the thread of the kite snaps，
does it means,
it got its freedom?
Or it is just a start of a nightmare?

when the thread of the kite have not snaps,
it is always being control
flying high flying low
flying to the left flying to the right
each and every movement
were being controlled....

When the thread snaps
does it got its freedom?
Can it fly freely?
Can it reach the places that it wishes to go?

NO!

After the thread snaps.....
It still needs to depend on the wind....
the wind controlled each and every of its movement...

now,
it have no direction...
letting the wind control...
when the wind blows...
it will fly without a direction...
when the wind stops blowing...
it will be falling towards the ground...
helpless-ly....

No matter how high it can fly...
it will never get its freedom...
this is because...
it doesn’t have a pair of wings which belongs to it....

No wings means no freedom
no wings means no direction
no wings means no hope

Where is the pair of wings which belongs to me?
When only will I have them with me?
When???????

Oh my...

I got the offer letter from Nottingham Malaysia Campus dy...
I started to feel pressure....
The pressure I gave myself...

All these years that I have been studyin
from Standard 1-6
Form 1-5
I dont feel that I have try my Very Best to study...
I was like...cukup makan thn ok la...playing fool around...ppl study for exam..I sleep...
or jus simply glance through....
I feel so regret....(*even though my result is not tat bad...but its not good..)

My parents always nag me....(* they wish I could study and get better result and for better job)
but I was like...a Donkey...jus wont listen....

Till last year...I went in college....
I only realized studyin is important...
I try and try my best to study harder...and I got my CGPA 3.46
its not perfect...but for me...its a new achievement...
No C D E but Only As & Bs....(*not tryin to lan ci ar...dun scold me ar...)
my parents dint say nth...but I suppose they will be proud...
cos I know study is important and they dun have to worry bout my studies dy...

I got my result...
and I look for better choices...
jus hoping that I could do better...
(* hoping to get a 1st Class Honour)
and prove or ask those ppl that said I cant study to shut their F**king Chicken A*s mouth up...

But the most important is...
I wana prove to my parents that Im not usless...I wan them to be proud of me....
I love u Daddy I love u Mummy........

Finally!!

Many ppl had been complaining tat I dint update my blog for long long time...
Actually Im not in the mood...
Im very blur and lost...
all Im thinking and worryin is bout Nottingham Nottingham , offer letter offer letter...
seriously, I dint really enjoy much when I went Penang....
Cos Im worryin bout tat....

Finally Today I receive the letter...
They Take me in dy...
wee hoo~~~
Class starts in Sept!!!yeah!!!
All the best to me...
Hello Campus life...
And
Bye bye kl life....

I'll Be There

There's too much that happen in our life....
It can be Good things and it might bad too...
Well...we cant stop them from happening...
and I dont know wat I can do to help those who are in bad situation...
but deeply and truely from my heart...
I will say...

''Hey fren...not matter wat happen..I will be here...standing just beside u...''

To each and every of my fren...no matter u are single,attachted,or jus broke off...my family...and also someone special in the future of my life...just call my name & I'll Be There...

Last Time...Now....(haiz...)

When I was still studyin in secondary...
I always compare my result with others of my fren...
Their result were like...Oh My God...average 80 and above...
and mine were like 60-70...
I thought Im lazy enough...
but till now...
only I realized...
Im NOT...
Last time...even Im lazy...but I will still try my best (well not very best) to do all my studies and homework...
but
Now...when I pick up a part time tuition teacher job...
I only realized...Students are Getting MUCH MORE LAZY!!!
They were like PIGS!!!
u know???
waiting teacher to feed them wit everythin...
nvr even try!!!
I felt very very sorry for them...